Summary of how i'm feeling
NOW.
Summary of how i feel about 2010.
Hahaha alright, sorry man i just have to post some pictures or i'll feel really uncomfortable about a post FULL of words. Anw yeah basically you know, people always say that "You gain something, You lose something." Well maybe not the exact words but you get the meaning. Somehow i'm just feeling that God's shortchanging me this year, or maybe i just dont see what he's given me yet. What i feel certain is that He seems to have taken away more than what he has given, loved ones, friendships etc. Basically, the things that matter. Yeah yeah, contented rgt? I knowwww but how dyou stay contented when everything that USED TO mean something is basically being taken away right.
Been going out a lot these few days, so technically i'm really. really. really. kinda tired alr. After being such a loner for so long and suddenly going out so much, well it feels weird! hahaha.
Met up w Chinny Lihan Mervin CK and Gabriel on Monday for CO BBQ but it was like weird much! i mean i didnt know more than half the people at the chalet who were supposedly my juniors. Hahaha. Was early (rare!) so I headed off to Clarke Quay to get some Sticky sweets so share w my cousins over the weekends rather than spend time waiting at Habourfront for Lihan and Chinny. Walked around before heading to Ion and shopped around abit more before heading over to the CO chalet :) It was nice, i mean i havent met them in..MONTHS?! or maybe a year or so already leh. Totally missed the times when we went home together aft CO and had bubble tea and cupcorn at the shop below changchen!! :D Time flies and suddenly everyone's graduating alr. -sighs- OHOHOHOHOHOH AND GUESS WHAT?! I BOUGHT A PAIR OF SHOES FROM NEW LOOK FOR 3.90$ HAHAHAHA CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! AND IT'S LIKE SUPER COMFORTABLE TOOOOO LOL. :) :) :) :) and another pair of shoes for 29.90$! i was a happy happy girl :) AND HAVIANAS IS HAVING A ONE-FOR-ONE SALE WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :)
Tuesday was a pretty useless day, had classes in the morning and so i headed home to sleep. LOL boy, my dad was bloody pissed he practically hollered at me to get the hell outta my bed. I think i'm quite scared of my dad actually, cuz it seems like he has so many expectations of me and i just really wana be able to meet them and stuffs so whenever i fail to i'll feel really really guilty, idk why either! Anw i knew i was going to continue sleeping if i stayed at home..So i grumpily brought my sis out to watch Rapunzel! :) hahaha i havent brought her out in awhile and i felt really bad the other time when i bought a belt home for my bro and she actually asked me "JIE, WHERE'S MY PRESENT?" omgzzz i was like..uh i give you tmr. LOL. so well, just brought her out lorh! And she liked it so well, it was worth it i guess. Went along and shopped for stuffs, but didnt really buy much either!
Wednesday was burnt away by rotting in between lessons of which i had a bloody grumpy instructor who got rejected by his girlfriend cuz her mum felt that he wasn't rich enough for her. OKAY KARMA'S GONNA BITE MY ASS BUT HELL, IT WASN'T EVEN MY FAULT RGT WHY DID HE HAFTO PICK ON ME?! zz. Bad mood, so headed down to starbucks to get a Java Chip to cheer myself up. Hahaha.
Yesterday met up w 305 and Gwenna and WEIYONG to go prom shopping but well it was pretty much useless as expected. I mean, how dyou go shopping w guys?! lol, so had FREE STARBUCKS COFFEE :D so..i was suppose to abstain from coffee but abit fail i think. Aye, watched Narnia! :D niceeeeee i think the captain, the one w/out hair! Quite good-looking eh HAHAHAHA seriously. And it was really weird cuz Gwenna and steph were BOTH eating long john next to me -.- Shopped around a little at John Little while the guys headed to the WC and took forever to come out. I made a bet w Gwenna and Steph on the guys' reactions if i asked them if this hideous looking green bra was nice, but chickened out at the last minute! HAHAHA EH I WILL FEEL PAISEH ALSO RIGHT. lol. Walked, stopped, walked, stopped until we finally trained and reached home at 10plus 11. And i realise that for the first time i was the only one who alighted at Pasir Ris :( Never happened to me for as long as i remember, but well james took MRT w me to pasir ris so thanks anw :)
Met up w Sheena KC and YT tooooooday :) and i was early (AGAIN!! omg be proud of me, hahahaa) Shopped at Taka walked over to somewhere and idk we just walked and walked and walked until my brain just shut off alr. LOL. Really super dee duper tired. Supposed to bu make-up for prom, which i honestly have ZEEERO interest in going for already and if it didnt cost bloody NINETY-FIVE BUCKS i might really consider skipping it. Okay i'll get to the prom part later. So shopped! and ended up not buying any make-up. haha. Bus-ed home w sheena and met MJ on the bus! So we walked together until he turned off to his house there.
And sometimes i think i really miss the 2J doods alot :) At least at times they'll let me know that i wont be alone :) and they really do surprising stuffs like a bunch of guys buying a clutch for my birthday? Plus the pink fluffy bunny hat. Okay that was really unexpected. Hahaha. It's like there's always someone there to run the show and suggest outings as well..I miss hanging out w them. And it was like before he went off he was like "eh and if you need help hor just tell me okay" hahaha i think they're awesomely nice people :D Hmm we've known each other for..6 years already? And somehow still can hang out together, i think it's really cool. It's like we've grown past the awkward stages together and still have class chalets aft so long!
Well, last year, what i felt was that. Fouriginals was the next 2J that i could find. I mean, in between PW we would head over to Ikea or DTE for lunch, stayed back to do PW together till the auntie wanted to close the doors..Had many late night movies at Ehub..Squeezed out a class chalet right after promos..Another class chalet in Jan..Stayover at May's house to make tangyuans for the class..Overnight at the airport together to chiong PW..X'mas at orchard..X'mas party at Vivo sky garden..Countdown at gerry's house..CNY steamboat at Bugis.. we did so many stuffs together! Hahaha. But honestly, the truth is simply that IT'S NOT GOING TO LAST. Ever since this year started, well for me at least, i just feel. Distanced. Awkward. when i'm w them, it's no longer that fun and comfortable. I've nothing to say to them, the 420 sticks to the 420, 305 w 305 and well, i'm alone. yes no point trying to comfort myself or even try to deny it. Sometimes when you just stop hanging out that often, you drift apart and is well..forgotten. I guess i only got myself to blame for not studying hard enough bah.
ANW wlao i spoilt three pairs of shoes in two weeks :( hahaha and i think i'm so traumatised by it such that i actually dreamt that my new pair of shoe actually FELL APART AGAIN. so far the worst i've gotten is getting so fed up w my ultimately cui shoe that REALLY JUST FELL TO BITS AND PIECES i just took off my shoe and threw it into the bin. THANKGOD my dad was coming to fetch me that day so i was standing barefoot for just awhile before he va-va-vroom came in his car. HURHURHUR DAMN PAISEH PLEASE i still walked up the stairs to throw my shoes into the bin!
OH AND I NEED HELP LAH WLAO MY PROM DRESS DOESN'T MATCH MY SHOES WHICH DOESNT MATCH MY CLUTCH :( :( :( BUT I'M TOO LAZY TO SHOP FOR A PROM DRESS AND I REALLY LIKE MY SHOES AND I NEED TO USE TO CLUTCH CUZ IT'S A PRESENT FROM THE 2J GUYS AND IF I DONT USE IT I DONT KNOW WHEN WILL I USE IT SO WHAT AM I GOING TO DO :(
AND THIS IS LIKE HILARIOUS HAHAHAHAHA. I THINK RAPUNZEL CAN BE MY SECOND FAAAAV MOVIE AFT DESPICABLE ME :) :) :)
I'm gonna shower then head to bed alr so nightnight :)
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